Ever Been In A Fight?

I remember how much I enjoyed the movie Green Street Hooligans and similar movies like Fight Club and could not totally put my finger on what was appealing about them. As many exhibit the example of what it is to face the pounding music, I realize getting beat up in life certainly builds character and has the potential to strengthen everything on the body. I haven't been in a fist fight since I was 15, but I almost hope that at some point I'm put to the test of having to defend myself or someone I love...to face my fear....become tougher. I'm sure that the individual who battles life threatening disease or experiences injustice in marriage or is humiliated, degraded as an employee is certainly "beat up". I'd like to think they would also say symbolically it made their muscles tense in a good way and their head up with awareness and readiness for the uncertain vulnerability in future that every person on earth holds (whether they acknowledge it or not). I've been hit in the nose with a basketball and in the eye with a hardball and it didn't feel like it built anything at the time. I broke my arm in two places in Jr. High and remember it dangling by the skin- the doctor told me the bone grows back even stronger. The mature man must embrace where one can become solid and intimidatingly fierce. Watch these movies and you'll know what I mean. I think they should be viewed monthly for that reason. I believe it is o.k. to evaluate life for failures and certain disappointments (not shying from death, taxes, pain)...at least include that as part of the picture. As one bleeds, takes a blow to the chin, smiles back, swings in full force, one become more alive, it seems to me. Like a controlled savage who sees the benefit in hurting, we become complete by throwing caution away with the absolute need to grow. I fear experiencing things in life and I so look forward to them at the same time. I hope to embrace my fear and love it.